A lot of weirdness, contradictions, and plain lack of clarity and focus…
“Sometimes these projections can come in the form of intense psychic
attacks. In my case, I was repeatedly sexually attacked as an
infant by an elderly female relative. She had experienced much sexual
abuse herself, and the idea of a male baby growing up to be an empowered man was abhorrent to her psyche. She also had unmet
sexual needs, which she projected onto me. But the universe wasn’t
content to see me psychically abused by just one puny human. Seven
generations ago on my father’s side of the family, an ancestor of mine
contracted a sexual disease.
The intense shame of this got transferred onto his children, right
down the line to my generation of the family. Though the gonorrhea
has long gone, the shaming energy persists. To this day I have to
maintain vigilant work on this energy, as my father’s spirit still projects
the shame of it at me and other family members.
This is an unconscious way to control the energy of the family consciousness field. I have repeatedly passed on the message to
the old bastard that he is dead, and that he should start acting that
way. Unfortunately, listening was never his strong point. It is not only
consciousness that transcends the death of the body. Unconsciousness goes with you as well.”
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